World, Give Me Mercy

 

I guess I’m deeply sad

Because otherwise,
I wouldn’t sleep this bad

I don’t know otherwise,

What could cause this 

Feeling of nothingness

Feeling of restlessness

I’ve been battling alone

And this time around,

I’m not feeling like

Giving up

I let my fingers scratch

This sheet of words

To then walk them 

To my eyes

Scratch my eyes 

Until I bleed tears

The tears I have 

Been trying to keep

For myself

Because I’m an adult

I can’t cry with others around

It’s all bullshit,

Until you know

How hard it is

To let go 

Of your own emotions

To be so vulnerable

In front of someone else

To build trust so quick

You’re scared of yourself

Afterwards

And you get blamed for it

Even

World, give me time

I will make it all good again

But world, just give me mercy

I’m trying my best now

Give me mercy