What Do I Live For?

 

I know I’m a very reflected person

I think things through, over and over again

Except the very important question:

What do I live for?

I’ve always been floating with the wind

I’m waiting until the world takes me somewhere

I don’t know where

Surprise me, world

Until I basically slowly realized…

It’s in my own hands

And my own feet

Where do I wanna go?

I have made countless mistakes

I have been headless too many times

I have spent a lot of money

I have risked a lot

But still, I’m not happy

Maybe because there’s nothing such

There is never a happily ever after

There will never ever be one

As I learned through the years I’ve lived

Naturally, I had my good and bad times

Though short, those good times were good

I was happy when I was, shortly

But how if happiness was never long?

Maybe because it is never supposed to be long

It isn’t allowed to be long, somehow

So people won’t give up trying their best

I have been on my way to achieve the ultimate

Happiness, success, life, whatever you call it

But I guess it’s like trying to catch the wind

You can feel it, but you can never catch it

As life breezes through me

As I’m sitting or merely breathing

I don’t remember to reflect about the wind

How it stores all the answers to my life

Like a gush of wind comes a second and goes

Life feels like that if you look at the big picture

If you compare yourself to the vast universe

You’ll feel like nothing - because ultimately, it’s true

Nobody is anything except nothing

It’s a concept we try to think about in our life

Everyone wants to have a meaning

Everyone wants to make an impact

That’s why people are fighting

That’s why we have wars

That’s why we have famine

That’s why we’re all suffering

But that’s also why we’re alive

But that’s also why we’re humans

We’re all searching for something

Forgiveness, money, food, fame

And the other law that exists is

We will never have enough

As soon as you believe you’re something

The essence of nothingness is gone

It might be good, or not good

But people are designed to be selfish

And to tame your ego needs training

And not everyone is the master of themselves

And suddenly I found my life calling

What do I life for?

Skyscrapper and tons of money?

No

I want to be nothing

And be the master of myself

And to realize that the ultimate thing is

To live like it’s nothing

What I mean by that is

Ease, no unneeded hardships

Health, less sickness

And a smile, a day at a time

Because there is no such thing

As a happily ever after

Happiness is just nothing

If you forget to seize it while it’s there