I Need Answers

 

I think I just know what I want

I want peace

In the smallest form possible

It’s the peace you can’t see

It’s the peace within me

I think I know what I want

I want time

To figure myself out

As it’s the key

To let myself out

Of my own misery

I think I know what I want

I want to know myself

I want to grow

And I want to last

I want to do something big

I want to heal my past

I think I know what I want

I want to dream

And have the feeling

That I can achieve that dream

And not to fall back to sleep

And to only be allowed to silently dream

I think I know what I want

And that is to be myself

But what is me?

What is in me?

Why all the questions?

When I know I’m myself?

Why am I questioning me?

What is not enough?

What is world when everything is enough?

What is human when everything is perfect?

What am I when nothing is perfect?

I am still me

I have enough time to think

I have enough space to see

How the world is kind to me

How not everything is about me

But still, here I am, questioning

Inside of myself

My worth, my heart, my sanity

Where should I better be?

If it’s not right here

Right beside me

With me

In me

Being me?

I need answers