I'm Home

 

As soon as the thoughts start coming to my head

I escaped the room in my head

To the colder world outside

The other side of the building 

Where I can see the moon

The blue of the night sky

Because the sun, once again, left me too soon

And I look up and I see

Somehow a sense of clarity

On the trees, whose branches have no leaves

Because the leaves left me too soon

Because when the leaves were there

I didn’t care enough to embrace them

But it’s good too, like this

Just blue and brown and black

And a little bit of white on my horizon

And who said life isn’t also good like this?

Sitting around doing nothing

In the cold of the wind

Just me, myself, and I

And some thoughts

May they be bad or good

They will come anyways

Because we’re alive

But so that I don’t lose my sanity

I get away

Where it’s not my home

To somewhere where it’s also not my home

But just like a little baby

I need just a bit of direction

And just a bit of warmth of my mother

And just a sense of belonging somewhere

Even though home is a huge word to fulfill

This could be my home too

Where the sun sets too quickly

And where it’s mostly the moon that’s over me

And some people passing by near me

This could be my home too

Where the warmth of a family isn’t there for me

And where belonging is within and not among

Within myself and not among others

Because the fact that everyone’s different is real

And it’s to be accepted

That sometimes we’re all lost every once in a while

That sometimes we’re all scared

And worried and anxious every once in a while

And sometimes we just want somebody

But the only somebody you’ll ever need is yourself

And that’s the one you should never lose

And so you won’t ever get lost

Even if you’re not at home

Even if you don’t have a home

You’re your home