I Found An Angel

 

For once I forgot the world could be so silent

Where I could hear myself breathing

Those breaths I sometimes take for granted

My ears that I cover whenever I could

Sometimes I miss hearing myself

Hearing how much I have to say about things

About how great life actually is

About how shitty I still sometimes feel

How great my girlfriend really is

How shitty I sometimes still believe I am

Though in her eyes, I’m the one she loves

Sadly, I just don’t love myself enough, sometimes

I forget all my best achievements in life

I belittle myself as if I was a piece of dust

Blown by the wind, frozen by the winter, slowly gone

I forgot how great life is

Along with forgetting how great myself is

That I can still see that greatness with my own eyes

I’m still here

I’m still freaking here

Who would’ve thought after a year

That I’m still gonna be here

Writing this

Looking back at that time a year ago

Where life to me was nothingness

Where my life was about to be taken for granted

Where I needed help to even stay here

But I’m still here

Through and through, I’ve managed

More than 356 days long

And I’m so glad I made it

Because if I hadn’t, I wouldn’t have seen her

I wouldn’t have been able to see an angel

To feel this angel‘s love towards me

To feel her warmth, her good soul surrounding me

Because then I wouldn’t have met her

Somebody that makes me feel beautiful 

Somebody that thinks I’m wonderful

Somebody that makes me believe in it too

Somebody that makes me feel so grateful I’m alive

And in love

An angel that I didn’t see coming

I swear, she’ll stay and I will too

Nobody is perfect, not me, nor her

But together we’re creating a beautiful picture

Out of these puzzle pieces we have in us

We complete each other

Knowing her has brought the best of me

Knowing her makes me know myself

And more of the world

She makes me believe in good souls

And kindness that there is in this ruthless world

Her love shows me warmth

Her presence makes me feel whole

I’m not always in my best condition 

I have my struggles and I’m still struggling after all

But her words calm me down like nothing could

Her voice stops the chaos in my mind

Her love reaches out to my heart

Her hugs put my broken pieces back together

It’s strange how much a person can do to someone

But it’s beautiful that it’s her that does it to me

Because she’s a beautiful one

And I’m glad to have her by my side

In my heart and always in my mind

She’s the best thing that could happen to me

I’m glad I chose to stay alive

Because I found an angel

In a form of a human

A sweet sweet soul with a good heart

And I will be with her as long as it lasts