Instant Noodles

 

Here I am again

In a place where no light shines except one

Sitting, waiting for it to rain

I want to hug you but I doubt if I can

Here I am again

With my head facing the ground

I’m supposed to thrive for my gain

But my heart feels like I’m bound…

And here I am again

Trapped in my own memory of the past

That same spot of hurting and pain

I don’t know how everything happens so fast

Like, I wish happiness would last forever

When I feel it

But unlike the sea with its salty water

There’s nothing like it

There’s nothing like that smile when I saw you

There’s nothing like that hug I gave to you

There’s nothing like those good memories of us

There’s nothing like going back to those good times

And now I’m stuck in my own hole

There’s only one light when I look up

But somehow I just wanna sit here feeling half whole

Just alone, with myself, I try to hold up

It’s not because there’s no kindness in this world

It’s not because I have nobody that cares

It’s not because there’s no positive word

It’s just- there’s not really a good word that describes

How much my past can haunt me down

How much I’m still so affected by it

Everyday I’m just trying to see the dawn

To make the best of my days despite of it

But sometimes it’s just so hard

Like today, it all just feels so hard

I can’t even look at myself anymore

Without seeing my own broken core

I make myself numb with music 

Until the music deafened me

Doesn’t that all sound so sick?

Especially, I can’t even hear anything else but me

My mind is screaming 

My heart is roaring

But I’m tired of always taming

All those craziness I’m feeling

My eyes only see the movies

Of what happened to me

Those images and sounds

That I forgot was a part of me

But hey, life is still good, isn’t it?

We get to feel and relate

We get to think and contemplate

And we get to perceive the beauty of it

It isn’t always gonna be so clear sometimes

It isn’t always gonna be so easy sometimes

But just like everything in this world

There’s nothing that lasts forever in this world

Not even your happiness

Not even your sadness

Not even love

Not even hope

But we can always create new ones

As long as we’re breathing

There are a thousand more ways

Out of those tears we’re currently climbing

Yes, I’m in my dark place right now

That light up there seemed so far before

It’s hard to get out here, but somehow…

I start to see myself and the beauty of my core

It’s all a journey we have to take

Nothing comes instantly- not even instant noodles

Yes, sometimes we have to fake

But we’re all capable to jump over the hurdles

Take it easy

Soon life will become easy

You don’t have to believe it now

But that’s my vow