Selfless Gravity

 

Have you ever had that moment?

When your head is so full

That you can’t even hear the loud song

Inside your ears anymore?

That you don’t even know

What you’re actually thinking about

But it just feels so full in your head

You wish you knew how to sort it out?

Despite of all the good times you had

And all the good memories you made

That you wish would last for eternity

But apparently, just like other memories

They only last for the moment you felt it

Isn’t it a sad reality?

Like as if nothing mattered anymore

Like all those good times were just…

…nothingness in the end?

Maybe in the end that selflessness

Wasn’t a good idea at all?

Or maybe that thought that I’m good

Wasn’t true at all?

Because apparently I’m struggling

After struggles and struggles

And land on the same spot of struggle

Again, again, and again

So what does it mean to me?

If I can’t even love somebody right

If I can’t even love myself right

Or do the right thing with that somebody

That I thought I love

What should all these thoughts be?

A wait only leads to another waiting

Of something that isn’t even certain

How are you even supposed to continue?

When you don’t even know how to start?

Maybe it was the wrong idea after all

Maybe it was the wrong steps taken

Maybe it was the imbalance

Between head, heart, and lust

And waking up on the wrong side of the bed

With the wrong people beside you

Maybe that was it then

But just like any other bad day

There will always be a better one coming

Either better on it’s badness or goodness

But as long as you’re inhaling and exhaling

There will always be time for healing

That not every second of struggle means

That the world is falling

No it isn’t, not yet

So as long as gravity still exists

Gravitate yourself towards your soul

Because when nobody’s there

It’s the home you can always come back to

And it is within you, always with you

Your source of power and electricity

That would never ever leave you

It is what you have after all you’ve lost

The only thing that won’t make you feel lost

Gravitate yourself back to you

All big thanks to you

For being kind to you and those around you

It isn’t easy, is it? That selflessness thing?

But it will somehow be worth it

Don’t lose your hope

And most importantly

Don’t lose yourself

Stay with you, within you

For you