Here/There

 

Now I’m all that what I wished I had

What’s more to come?

Now I’m there where I wished to be

But why these weird feelings?

Let things sink in, let things sink in

Easier said than done, easier said than done

Why do I feel like puking?

Why do I feel like escaping?

Until I’ve created a new realm in my dreams

Like a place I’ll rather be in than here

Anywhere here in this world

For once I just wanna sleep

So deeply so comfortable

That I can be there what my head has made instead

What am I running away from on the first day of the new year?

Now I am finally on my end destination

What’s wrong?

Why do I wanna go back to step one?

Nothing feels new here

Nothing feels old as well

Where did those 16 months go?

Was I even somewhere else?

Or was my head actually here the whole time?

Damn, now I know why

I had never moved on

That’s why I brought the hardship with me

And it wore me down so bad

I got depression

Or maybe it isn’t the only reason why

Why can’t I live without reasoning anymore?

What’s so hard in life?

Things can be worked for alright

Nothing is too scary anymore

I have managed a long travel

Let’s see what other parts will unravel

Now let’s go back to your self-made realm

As far as life’s giving you face palm

Don’t forget your lip balm

And to keep calm

Two months, and it’s done

You will be happy, when it’s done

And while it’s there

Don’t adhere

Seize it while you’re there