What's Forever?

 

I might have to try talking with myself

Am I so overwhelming for everyone?

Why do people want to go away?

What’s wrong with me?

Am I too much?

What part of me is too much then?

Why all these rejections?

Why all these cancellation?

It hurts to see people go

Or be in a room where everyone sleeps

They’re not there

They’re gone

Some even don’t make it back to the world

Why is life so full with goodbyes?

Why can’t thing just stay for once?

Why can’t I have someone forever?

Is there even a forever?

I don’t want to be a burden 

I don’t wanna be a plague in someone’s life

Something that should be removed

I don’t want that

Or maybe I should start to give myself time

To understand about boundaries

And respect it for myself first

Because just being who I am right now doesn’t help

My authenticity doesn’t make people stay long enough

But wait,

Shall I even change for those who don’t deserve me?

I don’t think so.

I am not that pathetic, thankfully.

Goodbyes are still shit

But I’m glad I don’t have to say that to the real ones

Because they will remain

Throughout and so on

They’ll stay

For you

With you

For ever, if forever exists