Flustered

 

I’m flustered

I don’t know what’s up with me

Where have I been

What have I done

Why don’t I feel things normally?

Was I even anywhere?

Where was I?

How long was I there?

What was done to me?

Why do I forget things?

Is there something wrong?

Something doesn’t feel right…

I need to figure out what’s bothering me

And my mind, it feels rusty

Why can’t I focus on something anymore?

How am I gonna live for my future?

Am I still gonna study later?

Why do I feel like I can’t?

I wanna be something

Not just another person

I wanna be big and inspiring

I wanna be known and admired

Can I reach those things?

I can’t even remember what day it is

Or what date it is

All I know is that I forget

That I ever knew about who I was

And now I’m practically nobody

I’m forgotten by myself

I’m flustered