Nothingness

 

Apparently I haven’t processed my life yet

I didn’t live well enough

Especially those 7 days of constant torture

I wasn’t even alive

I don’t know what I was

What I felt, what things meant

It hurts knowing how much things could turn

Horribly, bad enough that you lost your memory

I can only cry remembering

Life was cruel to me

God wasn’t there to save me

I was even nonexistent 

I was nothingness

I was the silence I’ve been battling with

I’d rather die than live with this feeling

What have I done?