Hmm...

It’s actually pretty sad now that I’m thinking about it…

Realizing how much I do love you, which shows/showed on my actions and writings when you’re not there…

But as days pass by, it kinda gets clearer that your ideals are different than mine…

Which is totally fine, but this silent treatment…

It hurts… although I’ll always try to understand you and give you the space you need…

I am still a human too…

I need to know that somebody I care about a lot cares about me as much as I knew she did…

The thought of losing you is enough to throw me off my feet…

I don’t ever want to lose you… never, please…

If I could, I just want to be beside you, forever…

I don’t know why I have this feeling towards you…

And why you, somebody that clearly said in the beginning that she doesn’t want to be loved…

It’s hard on me and on you as well, I get that…

Still, I wish you were more present in my life…

Though wishing that feels so selfish to me…

I guess I have to bare with it for now and try even more to understand where we both are…

I still miss you so much, every single day…

Like sometimes I think nothing will cheer me up but you…

It’s exactly a month since I’ve seen you last time…

And I know you’ll tell me that I should find happiness on my own, it’s in me, I shouldn’t depend on you…

But I’ve tried, and I’m not giving up, I just want to see you, that’s all…

I wanna feel your presence again…

I guess it’s hard for you to have this distance between us…

It is for me as well…

But I’m sure we somehow are able to get through this together…

I believe in you and us…

I hope you believe in us as much as I do…

I don’t want to expect anything out of you, I’ve demanded many things, enough things out of you…

But one thing, don’t leave me, okay?

I won’t be able to deal with that kind of hurt…